青春期困惑：我是一个同性恋吗

 woshitongxinglianma?woxiangyaotashixuduoqingchunnianshaoshiqiduizishenxingquxiangzaochengguocaiyiderendoushishenxunzishende1genanti。wojuedehuicaiyizishendexingquxiangbingbushiguaiyi，youshizhangqixingdanshennannv、jiqiduinannvguanxidingyidebuqingchudoushirangxuduorenzaocheng‘woshitongxinglianma’neiyangdeyilv。

 xuduoqingshaonianertongdui“tongxinglian”zheiyiciyinggaishifenshuxi,youmeiduanshiqi,tongxinglianzhebeijuedeshenhuanxintaibing,bixubeiyizhi,keshi,suizhirenleifazhanshidebuduanfazhan,tongxinglianbudanbeiyiliaojierenkeshiyiqiezhengchangzhuangkuang,yebeihenduodepingchangrenhewenxuezhuzuosuojiena,naizhidouyixie“shixing”le。

yinciyoumouxieqingshaonianertonglaidaoqingchunfayuqihuiduizishendexingquxiangtianmanleyihuo:“wo,shifougetongxinglianni?”

（qingchunfayuqiyihuo：woshitongxinglianma？）

 xuduoshehuixuejiajuedetongxingliandequxiangshizheizhongyushengjulaidefenzishengwuxuebixu,rutongyixienanrenxingyulaiyuanyuyuyixingpengyou,keshiyixienanrenxingyuzelaiyuanyuyunantong。yibufentongxinglianzhezaibudadeneishihou,shiyiersuijiuzaoyiqingxidiguanniandaozishendexingquxiangle,lingbufentongxinglianzheyaozai12suizhi16suidehuanjiezaicitanxunzishendexingquxiangbingzhujianmingquechulai,juedaduoshutongxinglianzhezai20suideneishihoudounengqingchudelejiezishendexingquxiangle。keshiyeshimouxietongxinglianzhejianghuizai40zhi50suishi,caihuranguanniandaozishendexingquxiang。

 zheizhongzhuangkuangquanshiyiqiezhengchangde,tongxinglianzheguanniandaozishenxingquxiangdezaozhongwan,yubenrendechengzhanglicheng,benrensuozaideshehuifazhanjiwenhuaziranhuanjingchangyoutingdadeguanxi,zheiyouyuyixinglianzaizongshushangzhanyoutingdadeyoudian,yincitongxinglianzhemeibanfazaineiyangdeziranhuanjingxiahenrongyidiququedingzishendexingquxiang。

 youniandetongxinglianzhebuguanzenmeshuozongshiyilvzishenweihebuxiangzhoubianrenxiangtongduiyixingpengyouhenganxingqu,danburongyifaxianzishenshitongxinglian。zheijiushishuo“houtianxingtongxinglian”delaili,shishishangzheizhong“houtianxingtongxinglian”jinjinguochiguanniandaozishenxingquxiangdetongxinglianzheeryi。xuduotongxinglianzhezaibudadeneishihou(naizhixuduorenyisheng)doumeitingguo“yixinglian”zheiyici,huoxu,qiantitiaojianshizheizhongrencongmeiduiyixingpengyouzaochengguoganqinghexingyuwang,buranjiushishuoguochiguanniandaozishenxingquxiangdeshuangxinglianzhele。

 zaiqizhongyouxuduodeduizishendexingquxiangtianmanyihuodequntizhong,youbufenbingfeizhenshideyixinglian,tamenjinjinduibenshendexingquxiangzaochengletongku。

 qingchunfayuqiderentiheshenglixueshangdouhuibianhuahenda,xingxiongxingheermengjichengcaixiongxingheermengdetisheng,buzhizaochengshengzhiqiguandechengshuqi、dierxingtezhengdechuxian,lingwaiyehuitishengxingyuwangjigongjinengli,bingbansuimingxiandexingchongdong。zheishideqingshaonianertongzaoyuneiyangde1gefengxianqingjing:tanenggouqueshijiangzishendexingkewanghejingongchongdongbaochi。

 yincizaiqingchunfayuqidechuqi,yingduizheileilaiyuanyuyuxingdetongkuhuihendazirandicushinianqingnannvmenxuqiuhenantongdepenyouyiqi。zaizheiyishiqipubiandenantongxiyinzhujihuxiangtanxunyiban shiyibianxunzhaoshuxin,bingfeitongxinglian。

 huoxu,youxierenhuigengweibijiaoyanzhongmouxie,jiaruzaoqianbabamamatadeneixinlidouguoduyange,tahuimeiyouanquanxingdejuede,buguanrenkesheidoucunyoujiannandehua,tongchangneiyangderentongchanghuishenxiandaobuqingchuzishendaodishisheidejiongjingzhong,naizhiduizishendexingquxiangyehenmohubuqing,jiuhunyinguanxilaijiang,jibiantongxingliandexiangxiangtahuijuedezaodongbuan,keshixiangbizhenshideyixinglianjianghuihuiyoudefengxian,taningketiaoxuantongxinglian,youyuyixingpengyoushitabuzhangwodehelingzishenhaipade,cikedetongxingliandoushizheizhongcuojue。

 yinci,xuduojuedezishenshitongxinglianderenhuoxushiqianqueaisuozaochengdezheizhonglinshidedanqie,tamentongchanghuizaizishendexingquxiangshangjuedehenmohubuqing,fangfozishenjibuguishuyuyixinglian,doubuguishuyutongxinglian,xinlishifenjiaolvhehaipa,jiaruchuxianzheileijiannan,youyujiaoweiyinsibaohuhejishuzhuanye,tiyiquyuexinlizixunshikaizhantantao。

(chuangzuozhexiguojia2jixinlizixunshi neiqudongliwenhuajiaoyuzixunzhongxinfuzeren)